Dammit son... you been talkin' to my shrink haven't you?

At this point, (after much backspacing...

), I will simply agree that... yes, I am absolutely looking for a way to positively affect the world we live in... WHILE AT THE SAME TIME providing/being there for my family... a decievingly difficult task....
... in my early 20's, I discovered the extrodinary power of "straight forwardness".... coupled with my ingrained moral integrity, this proved to be a very powerful tool which I used/still use to build relationships/loyalties to this day. I cannot stress to you young folk how effective speaking from your heart can be. When you do, people feel. When people feel, they tend to form a bond that essentially allows them to "relate" to you on a personal level... you might want to wright this chit down...

As for how to move forward at this point? I don't know. Every day I do what I have to do... all the while, watching, waiting, PRAYING(yes I pray) for God to show me how I might be strategically usefull in bringing happiness to those that deserve it in this hard world.