Busted

I have killed some illegal ones. I finally decided it was easier to kill em legal. It is a rush though. The tree stand is the best way though anyhow.The day I decided I would not kill anymore illegal deer I was sitting on a corn feild two weeks before bow season just across the line from kansas. (whatever you heard about kansas and big bucks is true x10)I had a bachelor group of 5 bucks come out to feed and I am not exaggerating at all when I say the smallest was one fifty or so I was using a ar-15 flat rail bull barrel on a solid rest with a scope. they were barely one hundred yards and got within fifty or so. their were two giants that would go anywhere higher than 180 B&C. there was also a nontypical with massive horns that looked like upside down oak tree trunks one had spikes on it and a drop tine at the base coming down the side of its head right against the skull in-between its eye and ear.I settled on the largest of the bucks. I believed him to be about 26 inches wide at the least and a main frame 14 point at least. when i say nice.....I mean nice.big long tines.his mains were stacked with points that looked to be two inches apart. I had my cross hairs on his neck for a long time.I had time to put em all in the scope and inspect their racks. I almost squeezed a few times but I just couldn't do it. I don't know if it was respect for them or what but the primary thing that went through my head was, If I shoot this deer I will spend the rest of my life having to lie about it and hiding it. because a deer like this will draw attention from whomever see's it. I had never thought of that until that moment but what would happen if If I killed a state record or something and couldn't show it off or anything that would suck bad in my book. If I killed one illegal it would be an inferior deer and theres no reason,because in the crop lands along the kansas mo border they can be killed nearly every hunt from a stand legally.I guess the adrenaline is the best part of poaching but it's not worth it in the long run.